I got the job! I start on July 7th. But, this means I’m taking this cycle off. I can’t imagine telling them that I need 2 hours off each day my first week on the job to go for the ultrasounds. So, we’ll be putting things on hold for a couple of months, maybe until September.
I’m going to be working at the local museum, and I’m going to be in charge of their New Media installations as well as their website. I’m having some ucky feelings about leaving the yarn store 5 days a week, but I know I’ll still be involved. And having a paycheck - and benefits - will make a huge difference to us and our stress levels, which will also make getting pregnant probably a lot easier once we’re ready to try.
… and NO, I don’t need to take a pregnancy test “just in case”.
While I think it’s cool that we’re not so weird of a case that they remember us, I sure wish they’d think for a second before asking me - in front of Sandra - if my husband and I didn’t have sex this month.
In all fairness, the nurse who asked was quite embarrassed and explained that she’s just soooo used to asking that…
The ultrasound this morning went fine, but again, all my follicles are still teeny tiny. Clomid didn’t work. Again. So I’m onto Prometrium again and will probably start Cycle #4 in about 10 or 11 days. We’ll try Clomid 150mg, but they’re going to monitor me with daily ultrasounds, so I think they’ll switch meds if nothing happens. I think.
I’ve got one more morning of p.o.a.s. to see if I’m surging before they haul me in for more bloodwork and another ultrasound. Even though we probably weren’t going to IUI this cycle, I’m still pretty dismayed by things.
Why did I surge and ovulate the first cycle on 50mg, but not since? Is it possible I had a totally natural cycle that first time and the Clomid did nothing? After all, I didn’t have to induce a period at the beginning of that cycle or the following one. Maybe that means my body was doing all the work on it’s own.
In any case, I’m imagining that yet again, I have no developed follicles and that they’ll tell me to wait it out another week or so before taking more prometrium. What’s up for next cycle, 150mg of Clomid? And when that doesn’t work, we’re moving on to pricier drugs.
I guess I’m just feeling a little on edge these past few days. Instead of just waiting to surge, I’m also waiting to hear about this job. And I’m conflicted. Am I relieved that we were able to use this break cycle to figure out that 100mg isn’t enough? Or am I disappointed that again, nothing’s happening?
This cycle is feeling an awful lot like the last one.
It’s Day 15 and my OPK test lines are coming up as faint as possible, or completely absent. Of course, a huge part of me is relieved that I haven’t surged yet, since I still haven’t found out about this job. It’ll be easier to pass on the IUI if I already know I got the job. It sounds really promising; they asked for references on Friday. I’m really hoping to hear tomorrow.
On the other hand, knowing that we probably won’t be IUIing this month has taken a lot of the pressure off. I wasn’t at all impatient to begin the OPKs this time around. And now that I’m suspecting the 100mg of Clomid wasn’t enough either, I’m pretty happy to be figuring this out in a non-cycle, so hopefully we have a better chance with the next one.
That said, our plans aren’t to wait too long. I know we could try this month, and going on leave 9 months into a new job wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world. But I’m worried about starting a new gig with regular (early) hours and coworkers and all that when I’ve been working with Sandra for the past three years at our store… very different. And to possibly put up with morning sickness right away… I think it’s too hard. So, next month, or the month after.
So, I’ve been OPKing for the past few days and no surge yet. It’s still early… Day 13… and I surged on Day 15 last time around. If I surge BEFORE I hear anything about the job, we’re going to pass on this cycle. It’s just too much to risk starting a new gig and being morning sick all the time, just in case. I want to do well on this, and waiting for a few months isn’t the worst thing in the world. Plus, there’s a good chance that I won’t surge at all, even on the 100mg of clomid.
So, I applied for a job a few weeks ago. Not just any job. THE job. The job that I get all excited and fluttery about just thinking about it. And yes, I know it’s “just a job” and will have downsides, probably lots of them. But it would be. So. Good.
(And it would be so good for Sandra and I have to have things like a regular paycheck and prescription benefits and actual paid mat leave.)
And I had an interview today and it went really well. I will find out something early next week. The problem? I could be surging any day from Friday on. If it was like my only functioning cycle so far, I’ll probably surge on Day 15-16, so either Monday or Tuesday. Now, if I find out I probably didn’t get the job, no problem. But what if I surge before I find out? I can’t start a brand new job pregnant, possibly morning sick, and probably needing to take leave within 9 months, can I?
So, Clomid aside, Sandra and I have tentatively decided to skip this cycle. And the next. And probably the one after that. Bummer, eh?
But, it’s such a great job….
I finally got a call back at the “right” number yesterday around lunch and was able to pick up my 100mg prescription last night. So, Day 1 of the Clomid is done, four more to go. I’m a bit nervous about this cycle, and not only because of the higher dose. (Does that mean worse side-effects?)
I have an interview next Tuesday morning for a thing I really really really want. I’m trying to relate this cycle back to the first one to figure out if that’s about the right timing for Full On Crazy as opposed to Inconveniently Hot Flashing. Either way, I’ll just have to do my best and hope it all works out and I don’t snap or fly off the handle for no reason.
Ugh.
I’m pretty happy to be starting this cycle at long last. It feels like a loooong time since April and BFN #1.
One of the things that drives me absolutely batty about our clinic is that I’ve only talked to a live person when I’ve called in a total of two times, both on the weekends when things are quieter. Otherwise, you listen to a complex system of extension options before choosing your mailbox and leaving your message.
Normally, someone will call back within the day. So, I don’t know why I didn’t get a callback yesterday. I guess it’s not a huge deal. I wouldn’t be taking the Clomid until tomorrow anyway. But I’m one of those people who likes to do things ahead of time. If I have to take pills, for example, I like to make sure I pick up the prescription at least the day before.
So, I guess I’ll call in again and see what happens today.
And so Cycle #3 begins.
I’d been spotting since Saturday night, so a huge part of me thought nothing more would ever happen. And then it did. And now I get to call into the clinic and wait for that return call prebooking my IUI time and calling in my next Clomid prescription.
I guess what I learned last month is that few yucky Clomid symptoms also equals no follicles developing. So, yay for yucky Clomid symptoms! Here’s hoping 100mg does the trick!
My babydog sliced his paw open in the park last week and has had stitches and various bandages. Something happened between the time they changed his bandage at the vet’s on Saturday afternoon and last night, and now his paw is oozing all sorts of yuck and smells really rank. We’ve changed the bandage ourselves a few times now, and I don’t know if his paws are bleeding or oozing puss or something… It doesn’t seem to be the sutures at all, more like in between his toes.
So the other call I have to make is to the vet to see if they can squeeze in a look. It’s been hard enough keeping him inside and not playing or putting too much pressure on it all week, much less keeping it dry during this raining weather we’ve been having. I’m not sure what they’ll have us do to fix this new problem!
The whole thing has me a little worried about having kids. If I’m this upset when my pup is not feeling well, how much worse is it when it’s your child?
It’s now Day 44 of the cycle that never ends and I’m more than ready to just have a full bleed already and start
Cycle #3. If it comes by 3pm, this will turn into Day 1. If not, then maybe tomorrow?
Sundays at the yarn shop are usually my favorite days. We’re only open from noon to 4pm, which makes for not only a short day, but usually gives me at least an hour or two before we open to do some fun - and not so fun - jobs around the place.
This morning, I hand-dyed as much spinning fiber as I could before my back gave out from bending over the work table. (That means I only dyed a pound of fiber… boo. hiss.)
Now I’m just waiting for Sandra to get back from the store. We needed more vinegar so we could dye some more before packing up all the supplies and equipment. I have a feeling that my job, at least for the rest of the morning, is going to be mixing stock solution.
